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you reach up

you reach up and there's nothing there

you reach up and there's nothing there but you still grasp for it

you reach up and there's nothing there but you still grasp for it because there's no other choice

you reach up and there's nothing there but you still grasp for it because there's no other choice and you feel like you're choking


You sit up, gasping.

You reach over to the other side, seeking Daniel's familiar warmth and strength for comfort. You find nothing.

You try desperately to control your breathing. It's lying to you, that spectre of depression in your brain, that Daniel left because he doesn't love you, because he doesn't care. You remember that last conversation with him, how he explained his choice to you.

The spectre thickens and presses down on the memory, coloring it grey, the same grey that covers your memories of Charlie.

You bite your lip until you taste blood. The pain helps keep you sane, keep you grounded enough to have the presence of mind to call Carter or Teal'c. Hell, if you're going to wake someone up at three am, why not have it be Hammond?

You don't laugh hysterically. You don't cry a little as you pick up the phone. And you definitely don't sob into Daniel's answering machine just to hear his voice one more time.
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